Lessons from a soulful October:
This month was all about learning to be led by my soul.
I started the month off with a solo trip to the Blue Mountains where I met with a Soul Reader and began my journey of understanding what ‘soul’ is. I remember even on the day of, there were so many points of resistance (a bunch of things that could go wrong, went wrong) and the moment Heidi picked up my call, I kid you not, she sensed I needed to do this reading with her. The reading ended up having to be an energy healing and it was profound. In summary, it was the moment I decided I was no longer going to restrict the spiritual part of me... I was going to surrender to it.
October was one of my most in-flow months yet.
I'd been studying more on manifestation and quantum physics the previous month and now pairing the scientific knowledge with the spiritual just MAKES IT ALL MAKE EVEN MORE SENSE!
I had many synchronicities this month, from friends I met, opportunities that presented themselves at just the right time and witnessing money flow in and out of my life more effortlessly.
Speaking of friends... I remember about 2 months ago I felt incredibly lonely in my spiritual journey. I released this episode on the podcast called 'Who's on your Welfare Squad?,' as a way to share the importance of having a community around you, rooting for your mental, emotional, physical and spiritual growth. At the time of recording, I had little to basically nobody (lol) who was in my corner. It wasn't until I started setting the intention to be surrounded by like-minded and soul-led women that the community began to shape itself around me.
What began as meeting strangers at random places evolved into the first 'Soul Chats' gathering. It was everything I needed and more and I'm excited to journey through life with these women who also needed the same thing at the same time.
Photo taken after the first 'Soul Chat Saturday.' Some of these ladies I'd just met on the day and yet we were all so aligned! To join any virtual/ in person meet ups coming up, check out Soul Chats on my website.
Isn't it funny how the universe works?
October was the first time I allowed myself to go into a more soulful surrender. I gave myself the permission to explore my spirituality and curiosity of other modalities. I I let myself play in the mysterious and mystical and to discover my spiritual nature.
I even let myself go to the Mind Body Soul festival... an event I would have shunned myself for attending if it were years earlier (safe to say, I was definitely not as open minded back then as I am now). In doing so, I invited a friend and client Heizel to join me and she ended up having a spiritual awakening herself. She even thanked me for being so"authentic" to myself because it was essentially what in her words, "allowed her to step into her authentic self."
Unearthing the inner child
In doing so, I also unearthed parts of my essence and I journeyed back in time to reclaim the parts of myself I had suppressed. For example, the more expressive parts of me, the creative and the adventurous.
Right after dance class with my childhood best friend. All sorts of nostalgia & good vibes.
This month I let myself feel more, express more and be uninhibited. I took up dancing, let my playfulness come out in badminton & allowed my identity to evolve. Something about this month called me back to my 'childlike self...' you know, that part of you that you suppressed because they told you to grow up?
Young Nicole would sing at the top of her lungs, dance her little booty off and express herself creatively. Reconnecting to the childlike self again was liberating in all sorts of ways for me. I recorded a voice journal entry here about 'Being a Kid Again: Embracing Childlike wonder' if you want to listen to my spiel on this.
I allowed myself to release the associations that "I suck at racquet sports" and began taking up badminton for leisure. I've met amazing new friends and suprisingly have found a new love for the sport.
It felt as if much of the exploration I’d done in the previous month was solidified this month as I gave the experimental stage of “figuring myself out” become the “embodying the version of me I had become disconnected from, yet always was.”
In this process, I've had to come to an understanding that when you lean into your authentic self, you're going to almost feel like an alien to everybody else. You'll begin to notice how different you feel from everyone else and how much you stand out because of your authenticity. In my voice entry on 'Allowing the discomfort of being different during your transformation' , I said:
"I think one of the hardest parts about the integration process is that you're going to feel like a total alien to everyone and everything else that you're so familiar with. When you undergo such a deep transformation, often it can take some time for your environment to reflect that transformation."
I really had to become uncomfortable with this process of fully embodying myself and accepting that it was not going to necessarily be easy.
In short, October was a month of becoming.
Except... where usually one might mistake becoming from ‘striving to attain a status or achievement...:" it was more about ‘relaxing into who I already am' and reclaiming what felt like a lost part of my identity.
As strange (yet as serendipitous as always), this month ended with a full moon, one which apparently symbolises a big exhale. I don't yet have the vocabulary around astrology and moon phases... but I came to learn that the eclipse that closes the end of this month holds themes of 'surrender' Particularly, about exploring the character growth from 2021 to now (2023).
I am ending this month grateful for:
the things I DO have (fixing my focus on what is here and now and being present with it rather than being occupied with what I don't have)
the synchronicity of new friendships, income opportunities, clients & events that have affirmed & re-affirmed the path I'm on
the unlimited and always timely provision of finances (money always seemed to flow at the right time when I needed it most, reminding me that we are always taken care of and that I needn't worry myself about such a small thing as money)
the opportunities to influence lives (I've seen a growth in my personal reach locally and globally, a rise in my social media visibility and increased conversation with my online community. This is something I often take for granted because I can get so fixated on needing "more" metrics, but I'm humbled that people even trust what I have to say and willingly follow me!)
I am also acknowledging & setting intention towards:
embracing the parts of me that are being called into authentic expression
allowing myself to become a trailblazer for my industry, my work and the people in my world
becoming a master manifestor and co-creating with the divine
letting my spiritual self become embodied in my day to day life
partnering my personality with my soul to outwork my purpose
relaxing into my destiny and allowing wealth, opportunities and community to effortlessly build itself around me
As another month draws to a close and we approach the end of another year, I can feel the gentle pull to slow down, to quieten my spirit and to attune my ears to the intention of my soul. There is something to be unravelled before the year ends and I'm listening.
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