It’s day 2 here and life is back to normal here on the island. I had the chance to go out for a morning walk and the first 15 minutes were mediocre- streets with houses, stores and occasional views of the rice fields and mountains every few turns.
I headed for my villa and thought I’d walk the other direction to see what was there. It was breathtaking.
Rolling green rice fields lined by gorgeous tall palm trees all amidst a backdrop of mountain scapes. I soon noticed how quiet this village was in comparison to the usual hustle and bustle of the city centres I’d been to before in Bali. A bike would pass here and there and a villager would be farming in the fields from a distance. Houses are quaint and there’s very few “new” developments. You can tell this is more a local town than a tourist hotspot.
I mentioned yesterday that upon arriving here and learning about the lack of GoJek (transport) services that I felt homesick. For some reason, the unfamiliarity of everything plus the lack of accessibility to order food, get around town and do activities freely made me feel restricted.
As I spent the whole of yesterday in my room, I slowly became comfortable with what was before me.
I began to feel grateful for the simplicity of what I had access to here and how little distraction I would have.
“Perhaps this is what I need,” I thought to myself. So soon enough I allowed myself to ease in and enjoy my surroundings with a different lens. “This is what I wanted,” isn’t it? To unplug. To be immersed in the beauty of nature. To be away from tourists. To have ample space to just BE.
It’s funny how the mind works doesn’t it? The moment I felt the discomfort of unfamiliarity, I wanted to retreat. I find myself often feeling that way while travelling. Excited to lean into the unfamiliar one moment and then totally freaking out in another. Learning to get used to this ebb and flow of emotion and ultimately tuning into myself is the goal here. I lean into the experience.
As I begin my journey of officially building my program ‘Business without Hustle’ (which was the main intention for wanting to isolate myself here in a remote village), I tune into the question: who am I?
I think about creating a program and how so much of it will need to come from my essence- otherwise it just becomes another thing in the world.
In an almost poetic way, just like the villagers who I see here going about their day- tending to their farms, unearthing vegetables for their harvest, selling goods at their markets and hospitably tending to the guests staying in their villa; they go about these tasks daily purposefully. Knowing that it contributes to something greater than them and they are a part of a whole.
I see with perspective how what I choose to do is designed to contribute to the greater. There is always a bigger purpose.
My answer to the question, who am I? will be a byproduct of both looking back at my essence (who I truly am underneath my conditioned/ learned self) and also leaning into the experiment of life (who I evolve to be through awareness and conscious living). As I unlock more of the truth that makes up who I am, I know my purpose will continue to make itself clear.
And in the meantime, I will build anyway. I will create from the depths of my soul and pour out into this program my heart for the world. I am here to serve- to be part of the greater and to contribute to the whole.
Here goes nothing.
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